The past week I have been very slack on putting any content on my blog…really on my social media as well. My mind has been mush. There is so much going on that my brain does not want to function or process. Don’t get me wrong, these are positive opportunities, however, I am left feeling as though I’m standing in front of a giant white board with these opportunities written in front of me, each one can affect the other, and I feel like I have no direction. Oh, and did I mention on top of that we are trying to buy a house? Perfect timing, right? Then of course, like always, God puts out there a “drop the mic” moment.
I’m sure 99% of you have read, or at least have heard of, the story about David and Goliath, even if you have never cracked open a Bible. A quick synopsis, Saul and the men of Isreal went to battle with the Phillistines. The Phillistine’s best warrior was Goliath, according to text, he was well over seven foot tall, and basically was born for battle. David was the youngest of his family and was described as “young and ruddy” who would tend to the sheep. Even though he was not looked to as a warrior like his brothers, he volunteered with full confidence that he would defeat Goliath, while everyone else doubted his ability. The end result, David cut off Goliath’s head.
This story was part of my morning devotional. My current “Goliath” is fear. For those of you that truly know me, will agree with me when I say, I can be socially awkward. I love having one on one conversations with people, I love being in small intimate groups sharing life together, but put me in a big crowd and I become weird and uncomfortable. My husband is my social butterfly, and we balance each other out that way. My “fear” comes from the fact that I would have to step into leadership roles depending on which opportunity we decide to take. I have never pictured myself as a leader, I have almost always been the co-pilot, and I’ve been okay with that. Stepping out of my “comfort zone” makes my palms sweat. However, like David going against Goliath, I have to truly believe that God is going to guide me in the right direction, no matter how scared I may be.
God does not call us to be comfortable, He calls us to be uncomfortable. He wants us to take steps out on faith and trust His guidance, and that’s a hard step to take. Constant worries of “what if’s”, then there is the BIG one of “what if I fail”, that will make any person hesitate. Then I have to remind myself what fear really is: False Evidence Appearing Real, a tag line I read years ago. Fear does not come from the Lord, fear is something that can only hinder us from meeting our full potential. Will there be obstacles? Absolutely, but Lisa Bevere put it perfectly when she said, “Obstacles are not to prevent us from our future, they are to prepare us for it”. What do we do when we are faced with our Goliath’s, “Be Still” (Psalm 46:10). Take the time to focus on the direction we are called to. Hit the pause button, and ask God for guidance, but we don’t have to wait alone, seek guidance and wisdom from trustworthy sources, at times God will use other people to speak to use. Then wait for His word, in His time. There will come a time for all of us when our Goliath is standing in front of us, taunting, trying to keep us from moving forward. Remember, the Lord will always be there to catch us, we just have to take the leap of faith.